After Alice

"There won't be any difference between when I'm dead and now, because I won't know it. You see the famous 'to be' is consciousness, and when you sleep you 'are' no more. That's what I mean--a state of sleeplessness, because consciousness is a formulation, a very gratuitous formulation, of something, but nothing else. And I go further by saying that words such as truth, art, veracity, or anything else are stupid in themselves. Of course, it's difficult to formulate, so I insist: every word I am telling you is stupid and wrong."
--Marcel Duchamp

I fell in love with Alice when we were both very young. I fell in love with her the moment I saw her across the room at a gallery opening. That can't possibly happen and it most certainly did.

It never occurred that our relationship wouldn't really develop until long after she was dead.